Keeping on in Cambridge

so it has been a while since I last updated my blog..... I have always been wanting to write an article in chinese by the title of 我的剑桥梦 (My Cambridge Dream) as this is my childhood dream comes true.... the experience I went through to come here, the hope, anxiety and excitement..... sadly, I've not had the luxury of time..... anyway, I'll try to do that after my sustainable energy paper.... hehe... hopefully i'll not be as busy by then.....

anyway, it's 2 am in the morning now and I am still struggling with my coursework on analysing Virgin Group's strategies and the its business sustainability..... have not been sleeping much.... it's going to be a long march....... how long more to go? not sure..... but what else can be better than this? to learn, learn and learn..... to be drown in the sea of knowledge of no boundaries...

my favourite stanza of the poem 再别康桥 suddenly comes to my mind.....

寻梦撑一支一支长篙
向青草更青处漫溯
满载一船一船星辉

在星辉斑斓里放歌

It's here I fulfil my dream of the pass, and dream dreams of the future. so yeo bee yin, keep on keep on, keep on...... Lord, give me strength.....

论科学精神

看了　Stephen Hawking 的 A Brief History of Time　（自译：宇宙的源头） 和 Richard Dawkin 的 The God Delusion　（自译：神的幻觉）后有了很深的感想。小妹没有什么能耐去完全的明白或质疑这两个剑桥博士对他们的领域（前者物理，后者生物）的诠释。可是却从他们的文字得到了一些启发。

应该是从文艺复兴开始的吧？科学这领域的“社会地位“变成了不容漠视。好像什么都需要‘科学证明’。几百年间，人类已经完全的依赖科学来解释一切。虽然‘还’没获得诺贝尔奖，现代科学家里， Stephen Hawking 和 Richard Dawkin 在民间里算是很有知名度的。我想应该是因为他们写的书吧！他们有能力用简单的文字把那些复杂的理论清楚的表达出来。

在Richard Dawkin的文字间，你不难看到他好像认为自己知道和明白一切。也不难看到他那过分主观的言论。是因为畅销作者或剑桥博士的冠冕蒙蔽了他吧？ 庆幸的是，Stephen Hawking 还好。 这让我想起了牛顿一句著名的话：I was like a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me．．．（自译：我就像在海边玩的小男孩幸运的找到了几个特别的贝壳（牛顿定律），可是摆在我面前的还有那浩瀚的真理大海。）

当科学成为人类生活的主流，小妹所希望的是，科学家们能够秉持着应有的科学精神：没有什么是绝对的，因为我们所知道的不多。希望 Stephen Hawking 能够继续的秉持这精神发现更多对人类有贡献的物理定律。希望Richard Dawkin 有朝一日能够明白这简单的道理。希望芊芊学子能够不自满，不自我吹捧，因为学海真的无涯。　

No one will ever know it all

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are
Up above the world so high
Like a diamond in the sky
Twinkle twinkle little star
How I wonder what you are

This is one of the galaxies in the universe - Whirlpool Galaxy

"When I consider your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?" Psalm 8:3-4

Freedom to Pursue Happiness

I saw this quote in one of the walls in Royal Museum of Scotland and thought that it was good. It is written:-

"For we fight not for glory, nor riches, nor honour, but for freedom alone, which no good man gives up except with his life."

No, no, no, I am not advocating wars. To me, freedom is not restricted to the kind of freedom deemed by the Scottish heroes like William Wallace and Robert the Bruce. While I saw this, what sprang to my mind was the freedom to pursue happiness, first conceived by Thomas Jefferson.

My Life in Turkmenistan (2006-2008)

I spent most of my time in Turkmenistan from year 2006 to 2008. Now that I have left the country for good, I realized that I've not written a single bit about my life in this country. So I decided to start a series here in my blog before my memory about this country faded away.

What? Where? Why? When? How?

I Have a Dream

About a month ago, somehow I heard the record of Martin Luther King's speech in 1963 called "I have a dream". It is a truly exceptional and inspirational speech. I later came to know that it is a popular speech and can't help but wondering how on earth could I miss it for the pass 25 years.

Since then I've made one of mine. It is very similar to his but much shorter and most importantly it is not dedicated to the people in the U.S but to the people in my beloved country, Malaysia. Now that I have my own blog I decided to write them down before the thoughts vanish into the stream of time.

Here is mine:

好了

最近看了《红楼梦》，虽然有很多不懂的地方，可是有一首比较白话的诗却一直萦绕在我的脑海里。那首诗叫 《好了歌》。

世人都晓神仙好，唯有功名忘不了；
古今将相在何方？荒冢一堆草没了；
世人都晓神仙好，只有金银忘不了；
终朝只恨聚无多，及到用时眼闭了；
世人都晓神仙好，只有娇妻忘不了；
君生日日说恩情，君死又随人去了；
世人都晓神仙好，只有儿孙忘不了；
痴心父母古来多，孝顺儿孙谁见了。

真是好一个《好了歌》。这诗看下去好像是对的，可是深思后又好像有点不对。

人活着无欲无求就是神仙吗？神仙又能当多久呢？没有钱和权不要紧，可是连情都没有了，跟动物应该没多大分别吧！

无欲无求应该就是没目标。一个没有目标的生命很悲惨吧？就好像一个跑手不知道自己的目标不停往前跑。看不到明天的生命是灰色的吧？我想如果真的有神仙，当神仙应该也不是什么趣事。

所以我决定当自己－－杨美盈。就算再不完美也要好好做人，绝对不做神仙。因为当人比较快乐。

我不想刻意追求名和利，可是我有我的梦想。我只想为着自己的在心中的那个梦想奔跑，这样我才能每天快乐的起床。快乐的起床是那么美好的一回事。

我不想当别人期盼的那个我，不想在乎别人的眼光，我只想好好的走我人生的旅途，希望在我短暂的人生里，能成为别人的祝福。有人说，人生的长短你不能决定，可是它的内容你绝对可以。不是吗？